Celebrating My 40th Spiritual Birthday by Remembering God’s Goodness in All Things

by tklicka on August 5, 2017

I have known the Lord Jesus for almost 40 years now. My spiritual birthday is August 13, 1977, according to the inscription I wrote in my first Bible. I was 13 years old, but I still remember it clearly. Coming to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior that summer day was the best one in my life. Oh, how I love Jesus! Not only did He spiritually save me that day, He saved me that year from taking my life.

He has redeemed my soul from going to the pit, and my life shall see the light.” -Job 33:28

In the last 40 plus years, I have known the deepest joys of being a daughter of the King, wife to my dear Chris, and mother to seven, precious children. I have also walked through many deep valleys where all I could do was look up. In those places, it seemed as if I could go no lower in my heart or in my circumstances.

Yesterday was a low point for me; it felt like the stab of a sharp knife in my side. August 4th should have been a day of celebration for me – it would have been my 5th wedding anniversary. God has written a very different story, however. Deep valleys…loneliness…helpless to change anything or anyone, except myself. But Lord, You are with me…always.

Yes, there is sometimes a painful lesson to be learned in hardship – we can’t change others. We are helpless to help others do what God wants them to. Unless they want to change, it won’t happen. And because of their role in our lives, we may suffer for it. Lean hard on Jesus, friend, if you are in that place.

A devotional by Charles Spurgeon spoke to my heart when in one of the lowest points of my life last year:

“Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of My hands; your walls are continually before Me.” ~Isaiah 49:16

Spurgeon says, “He never fails; He is never a dry well; He is never as a setting sun, a passing meteor, or a melting vapor; and yet we are as continually troubled with anxieties, molested with suspicions, and disturbed with fears as if our God were a mirage of the desert.

“Behold” is a word intended to stir our admiration. Here, indeed, we have a theme for marveling. Heaven and earth may well be astonished that rebels should obtain such a closeness to the heart of infinite love as to be written on the palms of His hands. “I have engraved you.” It does not say, “your name.”

The name is there, but that is not all: “I have engraved you.” Consider the depth of this! “I have engraved your person, your image, your circumstances, your sins, your temptations, your weaknesses, your wants, your works; I have engraved you, everything about you, all that concerns you; I have put all of this together here.

Will you ever say again that your God has forsaken you when He has engraved you on His own palms?” ~Charles Spurgeon

As His children, knowing God has engraved us on the palm of His hands​ is the starting point for resting in Him when mired in the muck of living in a fallen world.

From this spiritual home base, assured that God will never forsake us, we can move through our days confident in His love. And although we cannot change others, we can change ourselves. We can run to Him who is always faithful, always there for us, always good in His actions toward us. We can trust Him with everything in our lives. Feast on His goodness, oh, my soul!

We can also take tangible steps to become healthy in our own heart and soul before the Lord. I will probably write more about this in the future. God has taught me so much about myself, where I needed to grow in my faith and trust in Him. He has also helped in showing me where I needed to love others more by standing strong in God’s truth in His Word, and then helping me to do this.

Doing so has sometimes resulted in my circumstances becoming more difficult, but again, living honestly before God and hurting for doing what is right does not shake the deep, perfect love God has for us. He is an anchor for our soul!

So, although yesterday was marked by acute sadness, I am confident in His wisdom and rest in His goodness and unfailing love. Are you aware of His great love in your life? May God pour these words over your soul and anchor you in their truth, friend.

“Because of the Lord’s great love, we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” -Lamentations 3:22-23

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